tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81222999316165806192024-03-08T00:06:56.703-08:00Fat PoetryPoetic meanderings on the way to the wholistic health of body, mind and spirit...Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-9438774297326988722011-05-02T15:08:00.001-07:002011-05-02T15:15:43.439-07:00the month of no excess...May is the month of no excess for me.<br />I'm cutting all excesses from my life<br />all extras<br />all mores<br />all not needs...<br />beginning with my eating habits:<br />No desserts<br />no extra servings<br />no snacks<br />no processed food<br />no meals out...<br />moving on to my spending habits:<br />No trinkets<br />no etsy or ebay<br />no pretties<br />no decorations<br />no gifts "just because"<br />no wrapping or garnishments...<br />on to my entertainment:<br />No driving "just because"<br />no movies<br />no mall looking<br />no plays<br />no trips<br />no computer games<br />no hotels...<br />I wonder what I'll look like<br />on the other side of<br />no excess?<br />(to be continued)Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-70193119508547299162010-05-09T09:09:00.000-07:002010-05-09T09:12:55.619-07:00Patron of the ArtsI must have been<br />a Patron of the Arts<br />in a past life...<br />I LOVE to give<br />money<br />to artists...<br />the newer<br />the more starving<br />the less discovered<br />the better.<br />I don't really care about<br />"having" their artwork<br />so much as <br />supporting their<br />creative process...<br />let others<br />consume<br />own<br />and display proudly...<br />I am much more<br />interested in<br />supporting<br />encouraging<br />and nurturing<br />the creative spark.<br />Or perhaps...<br />rather than an <br />actual patron,<br />I was a<br />young<br />starving<br />unappreciated<br />artist<br />myself?<br />Ah, yes...<br />in MULTIPLE<br />incarnations!Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-57971656427211711672010-04-29T10:35:00.000-07:002010-04-29T10:41:11.671-07:00Fashion MagazinesMy husband <br />recently<br />asked me to get rid of<br />my fashion magazines...<br />He says he is<br />concerned <br />about the artificial<br />and destructive<br />image that our<br />daughter will be <br />absorbing<br />if we keep them<br />in the home.<br />It <br />simply<br />never <br />occurred <br />to me...<br />I had thought of the<br />violent games<br />the<br />Victoria's Secret Catalogs<br />the<br />adult TV and Movies...<br />But fashion magazines?<br />I loved them so<br />growing up...<br />and yet, as I <br />dig deeper<br />I must admit <br />he's got a point...<br />I remember being a girl<br />and seeing the<br />glammed up<br />touched up<br />looked up<br />to models<br />gracing the artificially<br />enhanced pages...<br />lovely art, perhaps<br />but an impossibly<br />false <br />image<br />for this little girl<br />with chubby thighs...<br />So goodbye fashion magazines!<br />Perhaps both my daughter<br />and I <br />will benefit from your<br />departure!Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-73409345439905782322010-03-27T18:12:00.000-07:002010-03-27T22:01:09.653-07:00Online ShoppingOnline Shopping is dangerous<br />for the <br />empty woman.<br />It used to be that<br />you had to <br />take a shower<br />get dressed up<br />and drive<br />to a shopping mall--<br />all requiring effort.<br />But Online Shopping<br />is the McDonald's Drive Thru<br />of shopping--<br />a quick stop buy<br />with credit card number<br />is all you need.<br />From your couch<br />in front of the TV<br />with old sweat pants<br />(covered in cookie crumbs)--<br />no problem!<br />You can buy, buy, buy<br />in private (secret)...<br />only you<br />and your credit card company<br />will ever know...<br />and the postal service,<br />of course,<br />you good little "consumer".<br />Stuffing more and more<br />is never the answer to <br />emptiness,<br />no matter how <br />EASY<br />it is...<br />Excess Consumption<br />has always been the problem,<br />not the answer.Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-33840020482288676652010-03-25T14:04:00.000-07:002010-03-25T17:23:00.762-07:00How to start a diet1. Throw out all the clothes that are too small for you or don't flatter your current figure, and GO SHOPPING! Buy at least 3 or 4 outfits in your current size that look smashing on you RIGHT NOW!<br /><br />2. Get new makeup and a new hairdo, and look AMAZING every time you leave the house. You deserve it right now--don't WAIT until you're some other size!<br /><br />3. Buy pretty nightgowns and sexy bras that fit beautifully NOW--indulge in sensual fabrics.<br /><br />4. Dance every chance you get (especially with your lover and children)...get outside and see the world...walk from place to place so you don't miss the beauty all around you by being cooped up in a car.<br /><br />5. Eat ONLY what you want...eat ONLY the best quality...eat ONLY until you are satisfied (and then go dance--see number 4).<br /><br />6. Have sex as much as possible...take long bubble baths...stretch your entire body like a luxuriating cat every day.<br /><br />7. Throw yourself into creative projects that satisfy all levels of your being.<br /><br />8. Re-discover yourself (don't re-invent...you're already where you need to be, so let's be honest and LOOK at WHAT IS).<br /><br />9. Spend lots of time speaking with interesting people about fascinating topics. Get up, go out--BE RELEVANT.<br /><br />10. Get plenty of rest...but not too much...after all, your exciting life is to full to spend sleeping it away!<br /><br />Hmmm...perhaps I should have entitled this "How to be satisfied in your own skin"...<br />:)Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-74623254657621885222010-03-15T16:37:00.000-07:002010-03-15T16:41:06.589-07:00Having Oneself...Why is it so<br />difficult<br />to have ones own self<br />when all those<br />around you<br />are so busy<br />having<br />their own<br />needs<br />wants<br />and image<br />of you?<br />It's like Mom<br />(and Wife)<br />(and Daughter)<br />(and Friend)<br />always seem to<br />usurp<br />Actual Me.<br /><br />The Mad Hatter<br />would look at me<br />and sigh...<br />"You've lost your<br />MUCHNESS."<br /><br />I miss my <br />muchness...<br />can't everyone else<br />find their own<br />instead of constantly<br />requiring<br />mine?Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-68808157435266666432010-02-06T01:16:00.000-08:002010-02-06T01:19:20.913-08:00Floppy Mommy BreastsIs it a <br />RULE<br />that Mommy Breasts<br />must flop?<br />I stare<br />stupefied<br />naked into the mirror...<br />and not until<br />I cradle you<br />chortling <br />and chugging at my<br />milky breast<br />slapping my<br />floppy breasts<br />with joy,<br />that I say<br />YES!<br />Oh that every woman<br />could enjoy<br />her Floppy Mommy Breasts<br />as much as <br />we!Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-63353739037493172482010-01-31T09:34:00.000-08:002010-01-31T09:39:27.726-08:00The Importance of HairIt's amazing how critical<br />HAIR<br />becomes<br />when one's body is<br />chubby.<br />I found an adorable<br />blond shag,<br />saved my $$$<br />for months,<br />and build up this haircut<br />like a trip to <br />Disneyland<br />or the Vatican.<br />Arranged my first babysitters<br />to care for my one year old<br />and went off to <br />visit the Promised Land.<br />When I left Dante's Inferno<br />with orange hair<br />and a too-short cut,<br />for the first time<br />I felt<br />thoroughly FAT<br />(go figure).<br />Tried to make it work,<br />but you can't turn a turnip<br />into a rose.<br />Plunked down even more $$$<br />to get it fixed<br />by someone else...<br />now my hair is different<br />than the blond shag,<br />but I love it.<br />How svelte I feel!Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-34576983966304925762010-01-03T15:29:00.000-08:002010-01-03T15:38:05.093-08:00The Story of MoreI was raised by a Culture<br />who's one promise<br />is MORE.<br />If you work hard,<br />you'll get MORE...<br />If you're beautiful<br />(smart, thin, nice, etc)<br />you'll get MORE...<br />If you're successful<br />you'll get MORE...<br />and yet,<br />it seems we are<br />MORE-ing<br />ourselves to death.<br />As SOON as we have<br />the newest techno gadget,<br />there's MORE even BETTER<br />available.<br />As soon as we HAVE the man<br />there are MORE that are BETTER...<br />and as soon as we break up with<br />the "inferior" man<br />we "feel lonely" without one.<br />As soon as we have a new pair of shoes<br />we want a dress...<br />and as soon as we hit our goal weight<br />we realize that our thighs are still too chubby...<br />our blood sugar's too high...<br />we cannot quite finish that marathon...<br />or we "need" plastic surgery.<br />The story of MORE<br />is really the <br />story of<br />futility...<br />MORE is a <br />four-letter word, after all.<br />For the new year<br />(and all the years to come)<br />I'm stopping the "hero's quest" for <br />MORE<br />and instead going to seek<br />what IS.<br />My, my...look how SUCCESSFUL I am...<br />how HAPPY I am...<br />how LOVED I am...<br />how FULL my life is...<br />how could I possibly fit<br />MORE <br />onto my plate?<br />MMMmmmMMM...<br />life is GRAND.Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-29081363013969443082009-12-05T08:42:00.000-08:002009-12-05T08:47:15.833-08:00Fashion FlushI have been spending<br />FAR too much money<br />buying adorable clothes <br />for my baby girl...<br />she just looks so <br />PERFECT<br />in everything!<br />After the bazillionth<br />outfit<br />I had to look<br />at my hidden motive...<br />I'm buying clothes for her<br />rather than for me.<br />Nothing I buy<br />looks that good on me,<br />and I'm living <br />vicariously<br />through her<br />perfection.<br />What's a chubby<br />fashionista<br />to do?Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-18258537520977854122009-11-25T17:55:00.000-08:002009-11-25T18:04:18.340-08:00PhatI saw a GORGEOUS woman<br />this weekend in the mall...<br />Exotic face<br />Huge, heart-shaped ass<br />Long braided hair<br />Tiny little waist<br />Sultry mounded belly...<br />Every curve<br />and fold<br />and dimple<br />could be seen through her<br />Skin-tight leggings...<br />She strode <br />tall and proud in her<br />Platform heels<br />Bright, bold colors<br />Huge, chandelier earrings and<br />Scarlet lips...<br />and did I mention the<br />adoring man's hand<br />that clutched her rump<br />like a first prize trophy?<br />Any white woman<br />of the same dimensions<br />would have hidden her<br />bodacious beauty<br />away<br />for not conforming to<br />society's standards.<br />I applaud such<br />independent<br />beautiful<br />Black Women...<br />What style<br />what aplomb<br />what finesse...<br />to turn "fat" into<br />"Phat".Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-30081585208660566092009-11-11T17:14:00.000-08:002009-11-11T17:22:38.647-08:00Beautiful MotherhoodWouldn't it be<br />revolutionary<br />if motherhood<br />were the new "beautiful"?<br />If pregnant women<br />(NOT those skinny celebrities who<br />stay thin throughout their pregnancy<br />because of a genetic anomaly<br />or personal trainer)<br />with their huge bellies<br />stretch marks<br />spider veins<br />puffy hands, neck, and ankles<br />were called "lovely"?<br />Or what if the mother of a newborn<br />with the flabby tummy<br />dark sleepless circles under her eyes<br />and huge, leaky breasts<br />was called "gorgeous"?<br />Or the older mothers<br />with their crows feet eyes<br />sagging neck and breasts<br />and lumpy hips and butt<br />were called "goddesses"?<br />Wouldn't it be<br />revolutionary<br />if women were considered<br />"knockouts"<br />for fulfilling their<br />fertile genetic destiny?<br />Rather than chasing<br />the little boys<br />on birth control<br />with fake boobs?Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-54279836245718785972009-11-01T03:13:00.000-08:002009-11-01T03:15:38.943-08:00It's okay to be fat...Regardless of the bad press,<br />it's okay to be fat.<br />Fat can be lovely<br />lush<br />abundant<br />and<br />curvaceous.<br />Zaftig<br />is a<br />state of mind.<br />Give yourself permission<br />to be<br />whoever<br />you are.<br />Only THEN<br />can you begin<br />to aim<br />for the<br />future.Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-30350146928476675542009-08-18T14:51:00.000-07:002009-08-22T22:39:46.420-07:00GrotesqueA baby eats<br />zealously<br />smacking lips<br />mmMMMMmmmming loudly<br />closing eyes in ecstasy<br />...and we call the baby<br />"adorable"<br /><br />A woman doing the same...<br />"sexy"<br /><br />A man doing the same...<br />"appreciative"<br /><br />A fat person doing the same...<br />"grotesque"Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-76807619711458070682009-08-15T13:27:00.000-07:002009-08-15T13:29:40.166-07:00Death or Fat?"They" say that without death,<br />we wouldn't value life.<br />Without pain<br />we wouldn't value pleasure.<br />Without sickness<br />we wouldn't value health.<br />Without ugliness,<br />we wouldn't value beauty.<br />Does that mean<br />that without fat<br />I wouldn't value<br />thinness?Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-84576862436138302872009-08-14T18:39:00.000-07:002009-08-14T18:40:42.550-07:00The Secret to FullnessFill your moments<br />full to bursting<br />rather than<br />your stomach!Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-36512377968311272792009-08-11T08:54:00.001-07:002009-08-11T08:54:34.393-07:00DogsSmall dogs<br />live longer than<br />big dogs.Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-45270433136758309702009-08-10T22:55:00.000-07:002009-08-10T22:59:40.994-07:00Little PeopleIn college<br />I had a roommate<br />Stacy,<br />4 foot, 11 inches<br />the definition of “petite”<br />Although she was tiny,<br />she had quite the<br />cute (literally)<br />figure,<br />tiny rounded hips<br />and tiny rose-tipped<br />teats.<br />One evening<br />she invited me <br />home<br />for dinner.<br />Her family was<br />just like her,<br />the largest being<br />her “big” brother<br />who weighed in at<br />150 pounds<br />and stood <br />5 foot, 5 inches.<br />I felt like Gulliver amongst the<br />Little People,<br />a gross<br />5 foot, 7 inch giant.<br />The meal her mother served<br />was delectable—<br />green salad<br />iced tea<br />saffron chicken breasts<br />homemade sourdough bread<br />with butter<br />and chocolate mousse for dessert.<br />But what shocked me<br />was the portion size:<br />each person was served<br />one tiny bowl of green salad<br />one juice-sized glass of iced tea<br />one half of one saffron chicken breast<br />one half slice of sourdough bread<br />(with a tiny speck of butter already on it)<br />and each chocolate mousse was served <br />in a shot glass.<br />(I’m not exaggerating.)<br />That’s all she’d made.<br />I left that night<br />my tongue satisfied,<br />my stomach ravenous,<br />and I watched my generous thighs<br />spread as I sat my <br />165 pound frame<br />into the driver’s seat<br />of my car,<br />feeling like <br />the definition of “whale”.<br />That night <br />at an “all night study” group<br />I consumed an entire order<br />of French fries<br />two cups of coffee<br />with cream<br />and shared an entire plate<br />of cheese-smothered<br />nachos with my date.<br />All Big People,<br />the largest being<br />my date<br />6 foot, 4 inches<br />the smallest being <br />me<br />5 foot, 7 inches.<br />Big portions<br />for Big People…<br />Now do I want to be<br />Big<br />or<br />Little?Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-25609716043700756362009-08-10T17:55:00.000-07:002009-08-10T18:00:03.795-07:00The Story of IllnessI just saw<br />my sister's high school<br />graduation photo--<br />WOW.<br />Long, stylish hair<br />luminous skin<br />what a knockout.<br />Now...she's just unhealthy.<br />Instead of stylish--<br />thrown together.<br />Instead of luminous--<br />pasty, pale.<br />Instead of a knockout--<br />pounds of getting knocked up.<br />WOW.<br />She was never skinny,<br />just lovely.<br />But unwholesome living<br />has taken its toll.<br />Today she always feels<br />unwell.<br />I don't want my<br />hair<br />skin<br />and body<br />to tell the same story!Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8122299931616580619.post-29984631199466042222009-08-08T21:34:00.000-07:002009-08-08T22:39:23.071-07:00Fat--the TRUE "After Birth"I love my body...<br />round<br />curvaceous<br />luscious<br />ripe<br />But lately,<br />it only seems to get in my way...<br />move too stiffly<br />mysterious aches and pains<br />odd bulges<br />irregular crevices<br />My body has served me well...<br />healthy<br />agile<br />flexible<br />durable<br />loyal<br />I don't have a problem<br />with baby fat,<br />it's the miscarriage fat that<br />I can't seem to lose.<br />I don't want to be skinny<br />or wear mini skirts<br />or turn heads anymore<br />(fun while it lasted,<br />but I outgrew it long<br />before they stopped looking)...<br />I look at my<br />hills and valleys<br />and see a map built up by<br />giving<br />making the best of<br />and self-denial...<br />That may sound funny<br />since so many consider "fat"<br />to be a problem of<br />lack of discipline <br />or depression.<br />I have simply replaced <br />what I truly want or need<br />with what I could get<br />or what was easily available<br />or what others didn't take from me.<br />Too many crumbs from the master's table.<br />Tonight I begin the journey of<br />picking up all the crumbs<br />sorting through the self-denial<br />replacing the distractions<br />with my own bliss.<br />If people only understood<br />that fat comes from<br />the others<br />taking<br />taking<br />taking<br />they'd stop pushing pills<br />starvation diets<br />and gym memberships,<br />and instead offer<br />time off<br />first choices<br />and the main course.<br />Fat is what remains<br />when the scalpel has been removed<br />and all traces of trauma<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">seem </span>dissipated.<br />I love my body...<br />but maybe it's time<br />I loved me instead,<br />so that my body<br />remembers its<br />true shape.Once Upon A Dollhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12979101779841682442noreply@blogger.com0